Day 1..

First time in my life, i blamed myself for finding out the truth. First time in my life, I think that, I rather live in lies. First time in my life, I can't believe, I can't find someone to talk to. Today, is the first time, i thought of having another blog, hidden from others, so that there is a place, I can..say my feelings. All the while, my blog was to more orless, entertain others, without my personnal feeling. Today, i checked her cell & discovered that, she still does smses him. And still..she addressed him, dear. Um..the thought of it now, hurts me so much. I can't believe, what she addressed me, is what she addressed him.Yet more, the sms from him seems so..wrong. It seems like she is his mistress. Although, there is nothing concrete, but what I saw, is enough to suspect. So in the end, we had a long long talk...I want to trust her, I want to believe her. But seems like, she don't want me to. I know her for so long, been dating for so long, I really believe her, if she just asked me to. I have been out playing, been out seeing lots of stuff. This kinda things do happen..its not uncommon or what, just...do you know, where is your home? I so hoped, she still know where's home & put an end to it. I don't want her to go, I don't want things to be this way, but she insisted on it. Probably, she can't let him go? I wonder...