Day 10

I felt so bad, so sick & tired of everything..so I wrote her this super long email, with most of my thoughts & feelings in it. Well, I know, it won't do me any good, but I really cant hold so much inside me. But, as expected, she never gives anything, thats positive. Endless waiting, all I can hold on to, is somethings our friends said. Replies she gave, things she said...no matter how hard I tried to hold us together, shes tries harder to separate it. Why things turned this bad..?